You were always so shy about your gifts
Thinking it was silly or not so important
From the moment we started talking till now
And it wasn’t just me but everyone you met
You were so modest about what you could do
Always letting your actions speak for you
That’s one of the reasons I fell for you
It was never all talk but taking chances
There was this zest for life that is hard to find
I’ll be honest at first I was hesitant to date you
At times you felt so far away from me
I wasn’t sure this was going to work out
But I’m glad I took the leap of faith
You always said you fell for my voice
That you could just close your eyes
And listen to me sing and speak all night
The first and last thing you wanted to hear
However you had a voice of your own sir
And then I stumbled upon your works
Your writings were incredible to read
Romance in life bled onto the pages as well
You were so shy to share such things
As if it would diminish your image
In fact many people urged you to share
Both your writings and your vocals
And then you took the same leap I did
Your risks would pay off as you reach it
All the goals and dreams that became true
And together we saw the world all over
Yet the good moments had it’s tough ones
Times where you’d get distant from me
Where I could feel something was amiss
I can’t describe how frustrating it was
Getting you to open up proved to be a chore
Everyone who’s known you can attest to that
Yet I learned to let you share when ready
While knowing when to light your fire waning
The way you craft stories is incredible to see
You’d imagine different scenarios happening
Where you were in danger or had to sacrifice
To prepare for what it would take to succeed
If only I had known sooner why you did this
How many times when we laughed and smiled
How many times were you thinking of this?
When I leaned my head on you for comfort
I didn’t know your eyes casted away in thought
Wondering if you truly deserved all of this
Trying your hardest to put away those ideas
Except you couldn’t defeat them in the end
It wasn’t a matter of if but when you would
All along you knew it was going to occur
The strange thing is that I’d still stay with you
I’d remain even after knowing how brief it’d be
Because the moments were so amazing
And I know I impacted your life so much
I am sure you’d want me to move on quickly
As if you were just a detour on my road
But no you’ll always be a part of me sir
The love will never fade away inside
The gifts and the burdens you long carried
Well now they have become mine to bear
Except I’m sharing it with the world for you
So that others can see and be inspired
I will miss our funny duets in the car
Seeing you write and work hard at home
Playing at the park and at the lake
Cooking terribly while music plays
Dancing in the living room at nights
Feeling you pin my hair behind an ear
You whispering sweet nothings to me
I’ll miss that voice and smile so much
You probably said the same about mine
Yet I’ll never know what you went through in life
To make you do what you would go on to do
The guilt you must’ve felt thinking this
I may have not be able to keep the fire alive
But I certainly kept it going longer than planned
Long enough to know you and get you to believe
That you are loved and that you can love
I gave you the hope that you’ve been chasing
That someone out there truly cared for you
If only I had known what you were thinking
I just wish you didn’t leave like this so soon
Leaving me to discover you the harsh way
Of course I would’ve done anything to stop it
To show that there’s more to live for here
That you’re worth more than you think
Not just to me but to everyone around you
However here I am the widow of the writer
Wishing I could’ve said goodbye and that someday
Our child will know how great their father was. . .
Novatourist 